majority of it is shitheads fault. so tomorrow. well. today, im saying goodbye to two people.
one. Joshua Ray Morris. an amazingly strong person who passed away last week. i love and miss you dearly, Josh.
two. Doodleface. just because i can’t deal with heartache at the moment. if you do read this somehow. yeah i do still love you, alot. seeing you in pain kills me and it makes me feel pain.
looking at old photos and videos and listening to music reminds me of these two people. For Joshua, i don’t mind one little bit thinking about you. you brighten up my day and there isn’t one second of each day that im not thinking about you, you know that. <3
For Doodleface, it destroys me. i can’t take it anymore. im sorry, and i know you don’t care . it’s okay.
im fucking angry. at life. i read this thing this one person had written. about this certain other person breaking their heart and saying they love them and shit. and they wont back down.
this just makes me fucking rage. they DO NOT love them. they may like them alot.
i just deadset. do not want to feel anything anymore im so over everything. i want to erase all of the memories and i want to start fresh. i want to stop feeling like shit because to be honest with you all. i can’t stand it and im annoying myself.
theres always a brightside. as always my true friends have stuck by myside. i love them all immensly for that and they all know it.
and i also think im starting to gain feelings for somebody else. and i don’t mind it. he’s actually really amazing :)
1. Your facebook profile photo 2. A photo of yourself a year ago 3. A photo that makes you happy 4. A photo of the last place you went on holiday 5. A photo of you 6. A photo that makes you laugh 7. A photo of someone you love 8. A photo of your favorite band/musician 9. A photo of your family 10. A photo of you as a baby 11. A photo of your favorite film(s) 12. A photo of you 13. A photo of your best friend(s) 14. A photo of one of your favorite family members 15. A photo of you and someone you love 16. A photo of you at the last party you went to 17. A drunk photo of you 18. A photo of one of your classes 19. A photo of you on a school trip 20. A photo of something you enjoy doing 21. A photo of you standing up 22. A photo of your town 23. A photo of your friend as a baby 24. A photo of you that your hair looks nice in 25. A photo of a night you loved 26. A photo of your favorite weekend 27. A photo of last summer 28. A photo of what you ate today 29. A photo of someone you find attractive 30. A photo of you when you were happy
nah but really guize. im deadset bored off my tits. i like the word tits. idek what time typing right nao.
BUT TONIGHT ZOMGGGGGGG FAT ABO LASS’S AT BLACKTEWWN T0T3Z TRIED TO HIT KIRSTEN AND THEY TTLY DEAD AND I WAS LIKE ZOMG NOOO B3BZ SHES GONNA GET PWNT. SO I TTLY HELPED THEM , THEN IT WAS TWO ON ONE THE ABOS WAY ON KIRSTEN SO SARAH WENT PEWPEWPEWP IN ONE OF THE BITCHES FACE AND SHE CRIED AND I WAS LIKE ZOMG FATTY LET GO OF HER HAIR ITS OKAY . SHIT NIGGA . THEN LIKE SHE FINALLY DID. THEN KIRSTEN (AS MUCH AS I LURRRRV33333333 YOU!) WOULDNT STOP TALKING TO THEM AND WOULD STFU! SO I ACCIDENTLY PUNCHED HER IN THE FACE.
THEN THE BITCHES CAME BACK AND WANTED TO HIT SARAH AND IM LIKE NIGGASAYWUT YOU AINT TOUCHIN MY BITCH, BITCH! AND LIKE THEY WENT AND GOT LOTS + LOTS OF P30PL3 AND LIKE WENT TO JUMP US AND WE GOT JUMPED! LOL JKS WE’RE TOO HARDCORE. THEY JUST TALKED SHIT AND NEVER TOUCHED US. OBVIOUSLY BECAUSE OF MY SUPER AMAZING HUGES GUNZZZZZZZZZZZZ BRAHZ.
i fucking hate it only thing keeping me going right now are my closest and truest friends, and you fucken know who you are. always there for me no matter what. fuck everyone else. i dont need them seriously hating on life at the moment. in ten minutes im going to bed. i have work tomorrow and im going to be in the worst mood.
i cant even say that i hate you. we both know i dont. i dont want to say i love you. because i dont think i do. i think i got so used to everything being a certain way and it changed out of nowhere giving me no time to adjust i do not like how you can talk so easily to me so randomly . then change again and stop talking. it reminds me of how we ended. its so alike. you’re not getting to me. you’re not getting to my head. you’re doing my head in. i really want to be able to have nothing to do with you. but then i wouldnt know what to do.
i just want to go home. snuggle up in blankets with a cup of tea and cry all this anger out. i dont even know if im upset or angry. maybe both. but dont get this muddled up. these tears are not for you. these tears are for me. they’re going to help me. yes you were once my amazing. idno what happened though. you stuck to your old self. trying to live up to your ‘heartless’ rep. but the ones who are/were close to you, know the real you that you dont even know.
smart up boy. one day you’re going to lose the ones you love and the ones closest to you and by then it will be to late…